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Bil Si Tam
Wonderfully Deranged
Your Rejections
High Clouds
The Dance
Razorblades
Stay Away
Travel on
We’re free
Landlocked Blues
Bil
Si tam
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Wonderfully Deranged
what a lovely couple
we were the perfect pair
you were a beautiful boy
i always claimed that wasn't fair
you a deranged alcoholic
wanted to get half in my pants
a pathological liar with poor little crafty hands
and batteries couldn't keep us energized they just kept us mending i wish i
could say this was all just a big miss understanding
wonderfully deranged we'd drive down the street where we all would eventually
meet.
Lie to me darling
come back take me
i wish you could see just how much
ive been thinking about
vitamin c sour drops and
a million tissues soaked
ill open my eyes and look at the world
oblivious and naive because i broke you
breathe in darling take a drag
and exhale the spite
give me some loving
and let me show you that i can still be right
hey look at me please
come back
close your eyes and touch me
and kiss me and please
don't you leave me
and batteries couldn't keep us energized they just kept us mending i wish i
could say this was all just a big miss understanding
Your Rejections
you'll sit by yourself
silently recovering from your own rejection
you'll think about all the empty spaces
and dark places this can take you
then candle lights and incense scents
will fill your lungs with dreams
you'll dream and dream of better times
but you'll never change it seems
without a doubt you''l see yourself and run away and hide
you cant remember anymore what it feels like to feel alive
your knotted hair and faded jeans have lost again their spark
in the process of self salvation you forgot to leave your mark
and i cant any better and all my judgement seems
to be quite out of place
i can just sit here in this room
a cigarette in one hand and chocolate in the other and
try to choose my destiny
without a doubt you''l see yourself and run away and hide
you cant remember anymore what it feels like to feel alive
i feel like i am falling off the world
and dont you dare try to help me
i feel like i am falling off this chair
and i am not the one for you
i feel like im falling out of sync with
what used to be me
and please don't feel sorry for me
when i get better
without a doubt you''l see yourself and run away and hide
you cant remember anymore what it feels like to feel alive
hey
remember that time i said my body was too long
remember when i said my hair had fallen all off
and i didn't know how to put it back on
remember when i said that we couldn't pick our own destiny
and you dragged me down and you showed me
without a doubt you''l see yourself and run away and hide
you cant remember anymore what it feels like to feel alive
and you let me beat myself up over you
you jerk.
High Clouds
im still trying to deliver a punch line
im still trying to untangle my insides
still pretending i am living the high life
low down now feeling so tongue tied
get off those high clouds
still trip falling out of my own mind
honey tree ocean bee suicide smile
painting your dreams on the clouds in the sky
you said that i would always be mine
get off those hight clouds
still planning the prefect crime
im all strung up and hung out dry
pushed out of the nest without learning to fly
im still shaking from that look in your eyes
get off those high clouds
The Dance
who is this stranger in my bed
the man who had such laughter and hope
who used to look into my eyes with such love and affection
now indifference stares out from those blues
disdain reflects from your soul glass
lady alcohol has taken your hand for a dance
and your feel head long into her embrace
you kiss my lips with an old fire
and say you love me as you whistle up the stairs
now happy times are replaced with bleakness
laughter with unspoken grimness
duty has replaces willingness
and where are those infrequent times you
step though the door with a twinkle in your eye
and a song on your lips
you beckon me
lady alcohol has taken your hand for a dance
and your feel head long into her embrace
you kiss my lips with an old fire
and say you love me as you whistle up the stairs
why do we cling to this wreckage
are we complacent or cowardly
your verbal blurbs no longer sting
and underneath this chemical chain mail
is my heart
your body will come back
but your soul is reluctant to follow
lady alcohol has taken your hand for a dance
and your feel head long into her embrace
you kiss my lips with an old fire
and say you love me as you whistle up the stairs
your soul is reluctant to follow
Razorblades
within her walls the shadows ride
on razor blades of gold
and beauty dreams of suffering
possessed by sickness cold
her eyes are dead as marble bone
so soft the flesh that wanes
the mirror like a sleeping god
ignoring yet her pain
the ghost of sleep hold no release
she stays awake to bleed
but sanguine tears and pretty words
will never see her freed
her eyes are dead as marble bone
so soft the flesh that wanes
the mirror like a sleeping god
ignoring yet her pain
poor beauty weeps in darkness still
her hands encased in stone
that echoes her silent screaming
and the flesh is afraid of the bone
her eyes are dead as marble bone
so soft the flesh that wanes
the mirror like a sleeping god
ignoring yet her pain
Stay Away
heavy eyelids
pray at night
fellow soul mate
take my spite
drenched in bleach
drenched in shame
you be the pill
to take away this day
father's gone
no more strings
for the puppeteer will
never see these things
icy weather
trace your prints
footprint leading to some
other things
lay in bed as the pillow
draws you in
listen carefully under the sheets
so soft and thin
put your hair
in front of your face
hide your eyes
to leave no trace
so piss them off
while you still cane
you're only 15
and actually half a man
if they don't like you
well then who cares
after all in the end
we all die alone
and take as much as we can
and it tares
it tares me down
like a brown faded gown
and a frown in your crown
so stay away
stay away please
because you wear me down.
Travel On
day light shines through the cracks of the wind blown leaves
the clouds today robbed the sky bright rays like homeless thieves
water droplets streaming down the planes of he cheeks
im sorry baby i do thinks evil and treacherous that no one sees
forgive me lover please forgive my broken thoughts today
im leaving you because im a traitor darling im leaving on the faceless train
remember me please remember me because i will remember you
and please forget al the things i did especially the things i forgot to do
he huddles down to embrace his lovers waste
no sound will sound the same and everything else has lost its taste
she runs her fingers down the lines of his black and white face
to see again with love's blind eyes her boy's disappearing trace
forgive me lover please forgive my broken thoughts today
im leaving you because im a traitor darling im leaving on the faceless train
remember me please remember me because i will remember you
and please forget al the things i did especially the things i forgot to do
travel on
and you'll forget that i ever meant anything to you
We're Free
Hey child you're waiting
for another day you're waiting
you'll find yourself and maybe
you'll see me too and maybe
and be free
and see me
you'll carry on and finally
you'll shed the old skin like an old tree
you'll chase after another dream
and part the clouds now don't cry
this was hardly even worth a try
and a new love will come by surprise
just open up those beautiful eyes
sadly lately nobody tries
to see you
but it's alright
its ok
you don't need them anyway
you have me
and we're free
to do and be as we want to be
Landlocked Blues
If you walk away I walk away
first tell me which road you will take
I don't want to risk our paths crossing someday
so you walk that way I'll walk this way
and the future hangs over our heads
and it moves with each current event
until it falls all around like a cold steady rain
just stay in when it's lookin' this way
and the moon's laying low in the sky
forcing everything metal to shine
and the sidewalk holds diamonds like a jewelry store case
they argue "walk this way," "no walk this way"
and laura's asleep in my bed
as I'm leaving she wakes up and says
"I dreamed you were carried away on the crest of a wave
baby don't go away, come here"
and there's kids playing guns in the street
and one's pointing his tree branch at me
So I put my hands up I say:
"Enough is enough,
If you walk away I walk away."
(and he shot me dead)
and the world's got me dizzy again
you'd think after 22 years I'd be used to the spin
and it only feels worse when I stay in one place
so I'm always pacing around or walking away
I keep drinking the ink from my pen
and I'm balancing history books up on my head
but it all boils down to one quotable phrase
"If you love something give it away"
A good woman will pick you apart
a box full of suggestions for your possible heart
But you may be offended, and you may be afraid
but don't walk away, don't walk away
We made love on the living room floor
with the noise in the background from a televised war
And in the deafening pleasure I thought I heard someone say
"If we walk away,they’ll walk away"
But greed is a bottomless pit
And our freedom's a joke we're just taking a piss
And the whole world must watch the sad comic display
If you're still free start runnin' away
'cause we're comin' for ya!
I've grown tired of holding this pose
I feel more like a stranger each time I come home
So I'm making a deal with the devils of fame
Sayin' let me walk away, please
You'll be free child once you have died
from the shackles of language and measurable time
And then we can trade places, play musical graves
till then walk away walk away walk away walk away
So I'm up at dawn, putting on my shoes
I just want to make a clean escape
I'm leaving but I don't know where to
I know I'm leaving but I don't know where to
lyrics by Bright Eyes
